Sunday, June 23, 2024
First Congregational Church of Cheshire
© the Rev. Dr. James Campbell
Mark 4:35-41
On that day, when evening had come, he said to them, “Let us go across to the other side.” And leaving the crowd behind, they took him with them in the boat, just as he was. Other boats were with him. A great windstorm arose, and the waves beat into the boat, so that the boat was already being swamped. But he was in the stern, asleep on the cushion; and they woke him up and said to him, “Teacher, do you not care that we are perishing?” He woke up and rebuked the wind, and said to the sea, “Peace! Be still!” Then the wind ceased, and there was a dead calm. He said to them, “Why are you afraid? Have you still no faith?” And they were filled with great awe and said to one another, “Who then is this, that even the wind and the sea obey him?”
The dream starts like this: I am in our church, but it is never this building. I know it’s our church because you are here and Pastor Alison is here, and I am getting ready to preach. But somehow, I have forgotten my robe or my stole or my sermon manuscript. And my office is not down the hall. Instead, it’s in the bowels of the building, down many staircases and long hallways. And so, I rush to retrieve the forgotten items. But invariably, as I am rushing to get them, someone stops me to talk. Or sometimes, I get lost trying to find my office. When I finally do, so much time has passed, that I have only a few minutes to make it back upstairs before worship begins.
Or so, I think. Because all of a sudden, I hear the ominous sound of Joe on the organ, as he plays the opening hymn! It is now so much later than I thought! Panicked, I dash up the stairs and down the long hallways. And when I finally make it back to the Sanctuary, it’s the precise moment I need to go into the pulpit to preach.
And sometimes, that is where the dream ends. And the day is saved. But other times, the dream continues. I go into the pulpit to preach. I open the folder of my manuscript. But all the pages are wrong. They are either for another sermon. Or half the pages I need are missing. And so, I have no choice but to wing it.
In the beginning, it’s actually good. In the beginning, you all are listening and engaged. But somewhere in the middle, I falter. I lose my steam. I lose my train of thought. I cannot bring it home. And that’s when you begin to stir in your seats. And some of you, who shall remain nameless, get up to leave while I am still speaking. And the whole then crashes and burns. And I am left alone and afraid.
That’s the clergy version of every anxiety dream any of us has ever had. And my dream is proof positive that clergy are people too! We too struggle with feelings of inadequacy and stress about our work and fear about being left alone.
Now I know full well that Scripture encourages us, over and over again, to “fear not.” And yet, this preacher has had a life-long battle with sometimes debilitating fear. It started early. Some of it is based in trauma. Some in religion. Some in religious trauma. And so, I come to this passage in which Jesus asks his friends why they are afraid with some very mixed emotions.
After a long day of intense ministry, Jesus suggested that they cross the Sea of Galilee to the other side; to a place called the Decapolis. And so, they got into a boat. And when they did, their roles shifted. Mark notes that they took Jesus “just as he was.” The Lord was in a passive role, maybe because his exhaustion had finally caught up with him.
So, Jesus laid down on a large pillow in the stern of the boat. And with the gentle rocking of the waves, he was soon very deeply asleep. And they set sail.
The Sea of Galilee, a large fresh water lake, is shallow and surrounded by hills. It is not uncommon for sudden gusts of wind to blow down and between those hills and across the surface of that shallow water, stirring up large waves. On this day, the wind from the hills came strong and sudden, and the waves were instantly angry. We know this because Mark writes that the boat was being swamped.
Now these were experienced fishermen. They had sailed through bad weather before. But this storm was severe enough that they were terrified that today was the day they would die. And all the while, through all this drama, an exhausted Jesus slept.
Finally, their fear and panic were so intense that one of them stood over the slumbering figure of the Lord and shouted: “Don’t you care that we are perishing?” It was an angry accusation, fueled by terror, against someone whom they knew cared for them. But fear makes us all say things we normally wouldn’t.
So, Jesus roused himself from sleep, and stood up as the boat pitched and the wind howled. And in a loud voice, he said: “Be quiet! That’s enough!” And the wind and the waves were suddenly still. The great poet Mary Oliver described this moment like this: “Sweet Jesus, talking his melancholy madness, stood up in the boat… and the sea lay down.”
And when it was quiet again, except for the sound of the water dripping off their clothes and hair, Jesus asked them: “Why are you afraid?”
That question always stops me in my tracks. Wasn’t it obvious? Wasn’t Jesus also soaked to the bone? Wasn’t he standing in ankle-deep water? And didn’t he know that to ancient people the the sea represented chaos and darkness and death. Why wouldn’t they be afraid?
We may not be in a boat during a storm, but we know the storms of life. This life is so beautiful, but in a moment, it can also be terrifying. It is completely unpredictable. And there are no guarantees. And besides all that, fear can play a useful role sometimes. Fear can warn us. Fear can save us. As a former parishioner once told me: “When the hair stands up on the back of your neck, pay attention.”
So, why did Jesus ask the question. And more importantly, what did he mean by it?
Notice that Jesus also asked them a second question, right on the heels of “Why are you afraid?” He asked: “Have you still no faith?” And I don’t think you can understand one question without the other.
Now, does that mean that the disciples should have known, or had faith, that Jesus would calm the sea? Or did he ask the questions based on their accusation: “Don’t you care that we are perishing?” They thought that Jesus had left them on their own, to die in this deep and angry water. They had forgotten that he was in the boat with them. And so, he asked them: “Have you still no faith that I am with you in this boat, in this storm, in this dire situation? Did you really think that I would not stay here with you, even if this boat sank?
You know, I can’t really fault the disciples for their fear and lack of faith, because sometimes I too believe the great lie that fear whispers - that I am on my own; that I will come to illness or loss or death on my own, and that there will be no one speak peace to me, not even the One who has promised to never leave us and never forsake us.
There’s one more detail to this story that is often overlooked. And it’s simply this: this is also a story about a Savior who will not abandon the community. Of this trip across the Sea of Galilee, Mark says that “other boats were with him.” In other words, that midnight cruise to the Decapolis was a flotilla of the faithful, sailing with Jesus into the unknown. And when that storm arose, it didn’t just threaten one boat. It threatened the community. But when Jesus spoke peace, the community was saved too.
We’ve been in the boat with our Pastor Alison for a long time. And the thought of her transition to other forms of ministry might feel like a storm to us. It might frighten us. Or maybe we’re disappointed or sad. Maybe she feels some of those things too. And maybe we wonder: what will happen to us when she is no longer here? Who will help us navigate these waters? Who will help us guide this boat toward our destination? And what about the new pastor? Will we like this new captain? Will she or he or they like us? Will it be smooth sailing or choppy waters?
I don’t know the answer to any of those questions. But I do know this: that this particular ship of Zion has been kept afloat for 300 years. And we have weathered some mighty storms: smallpox and wars and terror attacks and nuclear threats and hurricanes and financial disasters and church scandals and, most recently, a world-wide pandemic. Some of these storms have indeed been life-threatening. And yes, sometimes we have taken on some water. But we are still here. And most important of all, Jesus has never abandoned this ship. And he never will - come hell or high water.
Thanks be to God. Amen.